Testimony of a Seminarian

 

Our Lady of Propetual Help: Pray for us
By Bernard Messier

It is my sixth year in formation with the Companions of the Cross. I cannot get over how time goes by so fast! In the beginning, ordination seemed so far away and now it is just around the corner. If all goes according to plan, I would make my lifetime commitment just before my ordination to the diaconate in September 2007. Not too long after, I would be ordained to the priesthood in late spring of 2008.

Throughout my seminary years, I would often hear the big question, “What made you want to become a priest?” Well, first of all, no one made me; I freely chose to do it. Secondly, my answer to the call to the priesthood was not an immediate one. I avoided joining the seminary for many years. In fact, it had to take a miracle for my eyes to be opened to God’s will in my life.

The earliest time I could remember hearing God’s call was at an early age. As a child, I was very rambunctious. I would always get in trouble for teasing my siblings. There was this one time when I was reprimanded for teasing my sister. My dad was very disappointed in me. When seeing the disappointed look on my dad’s face and how I offended my sister, I was very saddened. In noticing the state I was in, my mother wanted to console me by telling the story of Saint Maximilian Kolbe. She said, “Saint Maximilian was also in your predicament as a child.” There was this one incident when the Saint’s mother was so angry with him that she sent Maximilian off to church saying, “You go to church and our Mother Mary will deal with you!” So Kolbe did. When he was in the church, the Blessed Virgin Mary actually appeared to him. She was holding two crowns, a red and a white one. At this time of the story, my mother paused and asked me the question, “If Our Lady appeared to you holding two crowns and asked you to choose, which one would you pick?” “Both of them,” I answered. “Saint Maximilian also chose both crowns,” replied my mother. Then my mother continued the story of Kolbe. The white crown symbolized the crown of purity, meaning the priesthood. The red crown was that of martyrdom. As the story goes, Saint Maximilian Kolbe
became an amazing priest and eventually embraced martyrdom in Auschwitz.

When I heard this story for the first time, I was so inspired. It was then that I wanted to become a priest. I wanted to give it all for Jesus, including my life. I was filled with joy in this decision and I was at peace with it. In spite of this great experience, when I reached puberty, it was a different story. I had discovered girls. My high school sweetheart was first on my priority list. Priesthood was no longer on the radar. I convinced myself that priesthood was just a childhood dream. After all, I was now becoming a man and all men get married. Well, so I thought.

By this time, things moved from bad to worse. I was now involved in the partying scene. I believed at the time that this was a good occasion for “fellowship” with my peers. Life was great! I had popularity and the Epicurean lifestyle seemed to be very promising. Well, so I thought. After some
time, God began to intervene because this lifestyle was not the way he intended. In the beginning of the New Year, my mother decided to pray a Novena of Our Lady of Perpetual Help for the protection of our family. A novena is when one recites certain prayers over a period of nine days
asking for a particular petition. It is often asked through the intercession of a saint. In this case, my mother petitioned God through the intercession of the Blessed Virgin Mary. On the ninth day, my mother forgot to pray the last prayer. The day after, my mother was awakened around 12:30 in the morning and was prompted to pray the last prayer of the novena. Now, we all know that God is not legalistic on these matters, but this incident happened for a reason. It was around that time when I snuck out of my window heading to a party. As I was pushing my truck out of the driveway, I noticed that the road was a different colour. I thought it was just the residue from salting the roads. However, to my great surprise, I learned quickly that it was heavy frost. While driving, I lost control and collided
into a tree at a speed of 120 km/h! My friend and I were miraculously protected. The vehicle was crushed and yet, we crawled out without a broken bone.

This incident was a wake-up call. My eyes were opened to the reality of who I was. I am a child of God and the life I was living was not what he intended. God had other plans for me and I needed to trust in his divine will. It was at this moment that the long journey toward answering the
call to the priesthood began. I attribute all of this to the powerful intercession of Our Blessed Virgin Mary. Furthermore, I hope this story encourages all you parents out there. Keep praying for your children! You can never go wrong in invoking Our Blessed Mother.

Our Lady of Perpetual Help: Pray for us!

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